27 Nov 2016

Der Verlorene Engel

For you who given colour on my canvas
Who given light on the dark
Who wiped the tears
Who painted smile on sadness

You are you
Not white, black or violet
Not me, him, neither them
You are your own shadow
Not night, neither day
Nor dark, neither light
You are your own world

You and all about you
Your air, your sky, your earth
Gather on your box
you put all you need in, and throw it out when you dont need it anymore

Unfortunately,
im stuck on your box
Stuck in labirynth you created
impossible to running back home, neither have courage to keep moving forward
Im here
stuck in here
without your gaze, without you


Vermond, ich warte auf dich
💜 Ich Liebe Dich, Schatz


~Violet~


25 Sept 2016

Fear of Missing Out


Fear of missing out or FoMO is a pervasive apprehensioan that others might be having rewarding experiences from which one is absent. This Socio angst is characterized by a desire to stay continually connected withthat others are doing
~Wikipedia~

Unreasonable fear commonly owned by social media users
Afraid to be missing out by imaginary friends
people mostly dont know who exactly thet are, but their post on social media
Why we should be afraid to be missing out?
Dont we have ouw own buissiness to do?
Dont we have our own family to care?
Dont we have our own friends to laugh with?
Dont we have our own mate to be loved?
social media is social media
be wise with it
since real social connection is more valuable
value each touches, hugs, laughs, tears than emoticons ~.-

Its me, 
I just out from my FoMO
hoping all people can do the same 

Love, 
Violet 

28 Jan 2015

Me & My Broken Heart

I've been learned from pain you gave
I've been learned from scar you left
I learn to be strong, stand up and moving on
One thing that you never realized is your betrayal
Your lies, your dishonesty had mess up my trust on you.
Maybe it weren't broken into pieces but it couldn't same as before. it isn't perfect anymore
One more thing I've learned from you
I've learned from hatred
I learn to hurt

~Violet~
Hi Zayed,
Do you have right to feel happy??
God is never sleep.
I do believe in Karma, I'm waiting my luck to see your "happy ending"


11 Jan 2015

Imperfect Person with Perfect Love


He just simply person with simply smile
Without love words
Just fresh jokes bright my days
Draw a beautiful line on my face
He isnt big building 
He just small umbrella. simply small, but always there anytime I need.
He isnt stone, neither cotton
But he know how to be hard and how to be soft
He seem really dont care and very annoying
But He is the only one who always spell my name on his each prayer
He is friends and enemy
Hand to hold. sand sack to fight. shoulder to cry on
He isn't guardian angel
He let me fly, but never forget to lead  me home
He is treasure
He is Love


Happy Birthday, You
Happy Birthday, Me
Happy Birthday, Us
Happy Anniversary  ^_^
~Violet~

22 Sept 2014

Un Vermond & Un Engel (part. 1)

Once upon a time
Two humans met. Different place, different time, different culture. They met as friend. As they has same hobbies, football.
The Vermont is an artist and the Engel is a philosophies.
Mix on one art and beautiful word.
"A broken angel", angel said
Without smiling the guardian said desperately,"end of the day"
And smiling angel said, "not the end of the day ^_^ "
First time they met.
They smile together
Laugh
Love each others
Till big storm broke them.
Guardian cheated the angel.
He fall in love with another girl. Decide to left the angel alone.
Broken angel T.T
Feel sad but she try to be strong. To be brave. She try to be good friend for good life.
Another time of their story.
After love
After fight
Another storm may broke them
Season changed
Rain
Thunderlight
Storm
The angel still try to hold on. To keep in faith.
But the guardian ???
Is he do the same ???
~ to be continue~

17 Sept 2014

Someting About

Something about me, about her, about them called love. About sun, sky and moon. About running mature nature. If moon and sun can stay together on different. If nature let them turn around lighting night and day. Why couldn't us? We are same, aren't we? Part of life.
Something about life and love. About heart and feel. About breath the air. Embrace storm. About wind, water, wave, land and fire. To hold on
Behind all of these, I'm smiling. Behind all of these, I'm drawing a line on my face. Spread goodness, love and happiness. Even I breath on dirty air, dark shine sun, eclipse.
Something is me who learning to be something for all around me. To be smile, to be happy. Even I didn't so. ^_^

Violet Angel

24 Aug 2014

Dyslexia, Dysphagia and Dyspraxia

Found this phrase by seeing Indian movie tittled Taare Zamen Paar
Human dissabilities
Almost same name, different mean
lets check it out

DYSLEXIA
Dyslexia, or developmental reading disorder,[1] is characterized by difficulty with learning to read fluently and with accurate comprehension despite normal or above-average intelligence.[2][3] This includes difficulty with phonological awareness, phonological decoding, processing speed, orthographic coding, auditory short-term memory, language skills/verbal comprehension, and/or rapid naming.[4][5][6]
Dyslexia is the most common learning difficulty[7] and most recognized reading disorder. There are other reading difficulties that are unrelated to dyslexia.
Some see dyslexia as distinct from reading difficulties resulting from other causes, such as a non-neurological deficiency with vision or hearing, or poor or inadequate reading instruction.[8][9] There are three proposed cognitive subtypes of dyslexia (auditory, visual and attentional), although individual cases of dyslexia are better explained by specific underlying neuropsychological deficits (e.g. an auditory processing disorder, an attention deficit hyperactivity disorder, a visual processing disorder) and co-occurring learning difficulties (e.g. dyscalculia and dysgraphia).[10][11][12][13][14][15] Although it is considered to be a receptive (afferent) language-based learning disability in the research literature, dyslexia also affects one's expressive (efferent) language skills.[16] Researchers at MIT found that people with dyslexia exhibited impaired voice-recognition abilities.[17] A study published online (and in the July issue of the American Journal of Human Genetics), reported a possible genetic origin to the disorder, and other learning disabilities, that could help lead in some cases to earlier diagnoses and more successful interventions

Classification

Internationally, dyslexia has no single definition however it is generally accepted as designating a cognitive disorder related to reading and speech. More than seventy related names are used to describe its manifestations, characterizations or causes. The World Federation of Neurology defines dyslexia as "a disorder manifested by difficulty in learning to read despite conventional instruction, adequate intelligence and sociocultural opportunity".[19] The National Institute of Neurological Disorders and Stroke definition also adds, "difficulty with spelling, phonological processing (the manipulation of sounds), and/or rapid visual-verbal responding."[3] Many published definitions from researchers and organizations around the world are purely descriptive or embody causal theories. These definitions for the disorder, defined as dyslexia, encompass a number of reading skills, deficits and difficulties with a number of causes rather than a single condition.[20][21]
Dyslexia can also be acquired following brain damage; it is also commonly called alexia, it includes surface dyslexia, semantic dyslexia, phonological dyslexia, and deep dyslexia.[22][23] Acquired surface dyslexia, as one form of dyslexia, arises after brain damage in a previously literate person and results in pronunciation errors that indicate impairment of the lexical route.[24][25]
Numerous symptom-based definitions of dyslexia suggest neurological approaches. The dual-route hypothesis to reading aloud proposes an answer for disordered reading, including both developmental and inherited dyslexia

Signs and symptoms

In early childhood, early symptoms that correlate with a later diagnosis of dyslexia include delays in speech,[27] letter reversal or mirror writing, difficulty knowing left from right and directions,[28][29] and being easily distracted by background noise.[30] This pattern of early distractibility is occasionally partially explained by the co-occurrence of dyslexia and attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder. Although this disorder occurs in approximately 5% of children, 25–40% of children with either dyslexia or ADHD meet criteria for the other disorder.[31][32]
Dyslexic children of school age can have various symptoms. The symptoms may include difficulty identifying or generating rhyming words, or counting syllables in words (phonological awareness),[33] a difficulty segmenting words into individual sounds, or blending sounds to make words,[34] a difficulty with word retrieval or naming problems (see anomic aphasia),[35][36][37] commonly very poor spelling,[38] which has been called dysorthographia or dysgraphia (orthographic coding), whole-word guesses, and tendencies to omit or add letters or words when writing and reading are considered tell-tale signs.
Signs persist into adolescence and adulthood and may be accompanied by trouble with summarizing a story, memorizing, reading aloud, and learning a foreign language.[39] Adult dyslexics can read with good comprehension, although they tend to read more slowly than non-dyslexics and perform more poorly at spelling and nonsense word reading, a measure of phonological awareness.[40][41]
A common misconception about dyslexia assumes that dyslexic readers all write words backwards or move letters around when reading. In fact, this only occurs in a very small population of dyslexic readers.[42] Individuals with dyslexia are better identified by measuring reading accuracy, fluency, and writing skills and trying to match these measurements to their level of intelligence as determined from prior observations

Causes

Main article: Theories of dyslexia
Researchers have been trying to find a biological basis of dyslexia since it was first identified by Oswald Berkhan in 1881[60] and the term dyslexia coined in 1887 by Rudolf Berlin.[61][62] The theories of the etiology of dyslexia have been and are evolving.

Neuroanatomy

In the area of neurological research into dyslexia, modern neuroimaging techniques such as functional magnetic resonance imaging (fMRI) and positron emission tomography (PET) have produced a correlation between functional and structural differences in the brains of children with reading difficulties. Some individuals with dyslexia show less electrical activation in parts of the left hemisphere of the brain involved in reading, which includes the inferior frontal gyrus, inferior parietal lobule, and middle and ventral temporal cortex.[63]
Brain activation studies using PET to study language have produced a breakthrough in understanding of the neural basis of language over the past decade. A neural basis for the visual lexicon and for auditory verbal short-term memory components have been proposed,[64] with some implication that the observed neural manifestation of developmental dyslexia is task-specific (i.e., functional rather than structural).[65] fMRI's in dyslexics have provided important data supporting the interactive role of the cerebellum and cerebral cortex as well as other brain structures.[66][67][68]

Genetics

Genetic research into dyslexia and its inheritance has its roots in the examination of post-autopsy brains of people with dyslexia.[69][70] When they observed anatomical differences in the language center in a dyslexic brain, they showed microscopic cortical malformations known as ectopias and more rarely vascular micro-malformations, and in some instances these cortical malformations appeared as a microgyrus. These studies and those of Cohen et al. 1989[71] suggested abnormal cortical development which was presumed to occur before or during the sixth month of fetal brain development.[72]
Abnormal cell formations in dyslexics found on autopsy have also been reported in non-language cerebral and subcortical brain structures.[70][73] MRI data have confirmed a cerebellar role in dyslexia.[74]

Gene-environment interaction

For more details on Gene x Environment, see Gene-environment interaction.
Research has examined gene–environment interactions in reading disability through twin studies, which estimate the proportion of variance associated with environment and the proportion associated with heritability. Studies examining the influence of environmental factors such as parental education,[75] and teacher quality[76] have determined that genetics have greater influence in supportive, rather than less optimal environments.[77] Instead, it may just allow those genetic risk factors to account for more of the variance in outcome, because environmental risk factors that affect that outcome have been minimized.[78]
As the environment plays a large role in learning and memory, it is likely that epigenetic modifications play an important role in reading ability. Animal experiments and measures of gene expression and methylation in the human periphery are used to study epigenetic processes, both of which have many limitations in extrapolating results for application to the human brain

DYSPHAGIA

Dysphagia is the medical term for the symptom of difficulty in swallowing.[1][2][3] Although classified under "symptoms and signs" in ICD-10,[4] the term is sometimes used as a condition in its own right.[5][6][7] Sufferers are sometimes unaware of their dysphagia.[8][9]
It is derived from the Greek dys meaning bad or disordered, and phago meaning "eat". It may be a sensation that suggests difficulty in the passage of solids or liquids from the mouth to the stomach,[10] a lack of pharyngeal sensation, or various other inadequacies of the swallowing mechanism. Dysphagia is distinguished from other symptoms including odynophagia, which is defined as painful swallowing,[11] and globus, which is the sensation of a lump in the throat. A psychogenic dysphagia is known as phagophobia.
Individuals who suffer from dysphagia are often ordered onto thickened fluids. The thicker consistency makes it less likely that an individual with dysphagia will aspirate while they are drinking. Individuals with difficulty swallowing may find liquids cause coughing, spluttering or even choking and thickening drinks enables them to swallow safely. A range of commercial thickening agents are available to purchase for the dietary management of dysphagia.

Signs and symptoms

Some patients have limited awareness of their dysphagia, so lack of the symptom does not exclude an underlying disease.[13] When dysphagia goes undiagnosed or untreated, patients are at a high risk of pulmonary aspiration and subsequent aspiration pneumonia secondary to food or liquids going the wrong way into the lungs. Some people present with "silent aspiration" and do not cough or show outward signs of aspiration. Undiagnosed dysphagia can also result in dehydration, malnutrition, and renal failure.
Some signs and symptoms of oropharyngeal dysphagia include difficulty controlling food in the mouth, inability to control food or saliva in the mouth, difficulty initiating a swallow, coughing, choking, frequent pneumonia, unexplained weight loss, gurgly or wet voice after swallowing, nasal regurgitation, and dysphagia (patient complaint of swallowing difficulty).[13] When asked where the food is getting stuck, patients will often point to the cervical (neck) region as the site of the obstruction. The actual site of obstruction is always at or below the level at which the level of obstruction is perceived.
The most common symptom of esophageal dysphagia is the inability to swallow solid food, which the patient will describe as 'becoming stuck' or 'held up' before it either passes into the stomach or is regurgitated. Pain on swallowing or odynophagia is a distinctive symptom that can be highly indicative of carcinoma, although it also has numerous other causes that are not related to cancer.
Achalasia is a major exception to usual pattern of dysphagia in that swallowing of fluid tends to cause more difficulty than swallowing solids. In achalasia, there is idiopathic destruction of parasympathetic ganglia of the auerbach submucosal plexus of the entire esophagus, which results in functional narrowing of the lower esophagus, and peristaltic failure throughout its length.

Differential diagnosis

All causes of dysphagia are considered as differential diagnoses. Some common ones are:
Esophageal dysphagia is almost always caused by disease in or adjacent to the esophagus but occasionally the lesion is in the pharynx or stomach. In many of the pathological conditions causing dysphagia, the lumen becomes progressively narrowed and indistensible. Initially only fibrous solids cause difficulty but later the problem can extend to all solids and later even to liquids. Patients with difficulty swallowing may benefit from thickened fluids if the person is more comfortable with those liquids, although, so far, there are no scientific study that proves that those thickened liquids are beneficial.
Dysphagia may manifest as the result of autonomic nervous system pathologies including stroke[14] and ALS,[15] or due to rapid iatrogenic correction of an electrolyte imbalance.[16]

Diagnostic approach

The gold-standard for diagnosing oropharyngeal dysphagia in countries of the Commonwealth are via a modified barium swallow study or videofluoroscopic swallow study (fluoroscopy). This is a lateral video (and AP in some cases) X-ray that provides objective information on bolus transport, safest consistency of bolus (different consistencies including honey, nectar, thin, pudding, puree, regular), and possible head positioning and/or maneuvers that may facilitate swallow function depending on each individual's anatomy and physiology. In Zenker's diverticulum, barium meal first fills the pouch, then overflows from top. In achalasia, it shows "bird-beak" tapering of distal esophagus. In esophageal cancer, it shows a characteristic filling defect ("Rat-tail" deformity). In leiomyoma, there is smooth filling defect. Reflux can be demonstrated in fluorscopy. In strictures, meal is initially arrested above stricture, then gradually trickles down.
  • Esophagoscopy and laryngoscopy can give direct view of lumens.
  • Chest radiograph may show air-fluid level in mediastinum. Pott's disease and calcified aneurysms of aorta can be easily diagnosed.
  • Esophageal motility study is useful in cases of achalasia and diffuse esophageal spasms.
  • Exfoliative cytology can be performed on esophageal lavage obtained by esophagoscopy. It can detect malignant cells in early stage.
  • Ultrasonography and CT scan are not very useful in finding cause of dysphagia; but can detect masses in mediastinum and aortic aneurysms.
  • FEES (Fibreoptic endoscopic evaluation of swallowing), sometimes with sensory evaluation, is done usually by a Medical Speech Pathologist or Deglutologist. This procedure involves the patient eating different consistencies as above
  •  
  • Causes

    Classification

    Dysphagia is classified into three major types:
  • Oropharyngeal dysphagia and
  • Esophageal dysphagia.[12]
  • Functional dysphagia is defined in some patients as having no organic cause for dysphagia that can be found

DYSPRAXIA

Developmental coordination disorder (DCD)[1][2][3][4][5] also known as developmental dyspraxia[6][7][8][9][10] is a chronic neurological disorder beginning in childhood that can affect planning of movements and co-ordination as a result of brain messages not being accurately transmitted to the body. It may be diagnosed in the absence of other motor or sensory impairments like cerebral palsy,[11] muscular dystrophy,[6] multiple sclerosis or Parkinson's disease.

Classification

Developmental coordination disorder is classified (by doctors) in the fifth revision of the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-5) as a motor disorder, in the category of neurodevelopmental disorders.[12]

Signs and symptoms

Various areas of development can be affected by developmental coordination disorder and these will persist into adulthood,[10] as DCD has no cure. Often various coping strategies are developed, and these can be enhanced through occupational therapy, physiotherapy, speech therapy, or psychological training.
In addition to the physical impairments, developmental coordination disorder is associated with problems with memory, especially working memory.[13] This typically results in difficulty remembering instructions, difficulty organizing one's time and remembering deadlines, increased propensity to lose things or problems carrying out tasks which require remembering several steps in sequence (such as cooking). Whilst most of the general population experience these problems to some extent, they have a much more significant impact on the lives of dyspraxic people.[14] However, many dyspraxics have excellent long-term memories, despite poor short-term memory.[14] Many dyspraxics benefit from working in a structured environment, as repeating the same routine minimises difficulty with time-management and allows them to commit procedures to long-term memory.
People with developmental coordination disorder sometimes have difficulty moderating the amount of sensory information that their body is constantly sending them, so as a result these people are prone to panic attacks.[14]
Many dyspraxics struggle to distinguish left from right, even as adults, and have extremely poor sense of direction generally.
Moderate to extreme difficulty doing physical tasks is experienced by some dyspraxics, and fatigue is common because so much extra energy is expended while trying to execute physical movements correctly. Some (but not all) dyspraxics suffer from hypotonia, low muscle tone, which like DCD can detrimentally affect balance.[2]

Gross motor control

Whole body movement, motor coordination, and body image issues mean that major developmental targets including walking, running, climbing and jumping can be affected. The difficulties vary from person to person and can include the following:
  • Poor timing[15]
  • Poor balance[15][16] (sometimes even falling over in mid-step). Tripping over one's own feet is also common.
  • Difficulty combining movements into a controlled sequence.
  • Difficulty remembering the next movement in a sequence.
  • Problems with spatial awareness,[16][17] or proprioception.
  • Some people with developmental coordination disorder have trouble picking up and holding onto simple objects such as pencils, owing to poor muscle tone and/or proprioception.
  • This disorder can cause an individual to be clumsy to the point of knocking things over and bumping into people accidentally.
  • Some people with developmental coordination disorder have difficulty in determining left from right.
  • Cross-laterality, ambidexterity, and a shift in the preferred hand are also common in people with developmental coordination disorder.
  • Problems with chewing foods

Fine motor control

Fine-motor problems can cause difficulty with a wide variety of other tasks such as using a knife and fork, fastening buttons and shoelaces, cooking, brushing one's teeth, styling one's hair, shaving,[2][18] applying cosmetics, opening jars and packets, locking and unlocking doors, and doing housework.
Difficulties with fine motor co-ordination lead to problems with handwriting,[2] which may be due to either ideational or ideo-motor difficulties.[15][19] Problems associated with this area may include:
  • Learning basic movement patterns.[20]
  • Developing a desired writing speed.[18]
  • Establishing the correct pencil grip[18]
  • The acquisition of graphemes – e.g. the letters of the Latin alphabet, as well as numbers.

Developmental verbal dyspraxia

Developmental verbal dyspraxia (DVD) is a type of ideational dyspraxia, causing speech and language impairments. This is the favoured term in the UK; however, it is also sometimes referred to as articulatory dyspraxia, and in the United States the usual term is childhood apraxia of speech (CAS).[21][22][23]
Key problems include:
  • Difficulties controlling the speech organs.
  • Difficulties making speech sounds
  • Difficulty sequencing sounds
    • Within a word
    • Forming words into sentences
  • Difficulty controlling breathing, suppressing salivation and phonation when talking or singing with lyrics.
  • Slow language development

Associated disorders

People who have developmental coordination disorder may also have one or more of these co-morbid problems:
However, they are unlikely to have problems in all of these areas. The pattern of difficulty varies widely from person to person, and it is important to understand that a major weakness for one dyspraxic can be a strength or gift for another. For example, while some dyspraxics have difficulty with reading and spelling due to an overlap with dyslexia, or numeracy due to an overlap with dyscalculia, others may have brilliant reading and spelling or mathematical abilities. Some estimates show that up to 50% of dyspraxics have ADHD.[36]

Sensory processing disorder

Sensory Processing Disorder (SPD) concerns having abnormal oversensitivity or undersensitivity to physical stimuli, such as touch, light, sound, and smell.[37] This may manifest itself as an inability to tolerate certain textures such as sandpaper or certain fabrics and including oral toleration of excessively textured food (commonly known as picky eating), or even being touched by another individual (in the case of touch oversensitivity) or may require the consistent use of sunglasses outdoors since sunlight may be intense enough to cause discomfort to a dyspraxic (in the case of light oversensitivity). An aversion to loud music and naturally loud environments (such as clubs and bars) is typical behavior of a dyspraxic individual who suffers from auditory oversensitivity, while only being comfortable in unusually warm or cold environments is typical of a dyspraxic with temperature oversensitivity. Undersensitivity to stimuli may also cause problems. Dyspraxics who are undersensitive to pain may injure themselves without realising.[33] Some dyspraxics may be oversensitive to some stimuli and undersensitive to others.[33]

Specific language impairment

Specific Language Impairment (SLI), research has found that students with developmental coordination disorder and normal language skills still experience learning difficulties despite relative strengths in language. This means that for students with developmental coordination disorder their working memory abilities determine their learning difficulties. Any strength in language that they have is not able to sufficiently support their learning.[34]
Students with developmental coordination disorder struggle most in visual-spatial memory. When compared to their peers who don’t have motor difficulties, students with developmental coordination disorder are seven times more likely than typically developing students to achieve very poor scores in visual-spatial memory.[38] As a result of this working memory impairment, students with developmental coordination disorder have learning deficits as well.[39]

Diagnosis

Assessments for developmental coordination disorder typically require a developmental history,[7] detailing ages at which significant developmental milestones, such as crawling and walking,[5][6][8] occurred. Motor skills screening includes activities designed to indicate developmental coordination disorder, including balancing, physical sequencing, touch sensitivity, and variations on walking activities.
Screening tests which can be used to assess developmental coordination disorder include:-
  • Movement Assessment Battery for Children (Movement-ABC - Movement-ABC 2)[40][41][42][43][44]
  • Peabody Developmental Motor Scales- Second Edition (PDMS-2)[40]
  • Bruininks-Oseretsky Test of Motor Proficiency (BOTMP-BOT-2)[40][45][46][47]
  • Motoriktest für vier- bis sechsjährige Kinder (MOT 4-6)[40][48]
  • Körperkoordinationtest für Kinder (KTK)[40]
  • Test of Gross Motor Development, Second Edition (TGMD-2)[40]
  • Maastrichtse Motoriek Test (MMT)[40]
Currently there is no single gold standard assessment test.[40]
A baseline motor assessment establishes the starting point for developmental intervention programs. Comparing children to normal rates of development may help to establish areas of significant difficulty.
However, research in the British Journal of Special Education has shown that knowledge is severely limited in many who should be trained to recognise and respond to various difficulties, including developmental coordination disorder, dyslexia and deficits in attention, motor control and perception (DAMP).[8] The earlier that difficulties are noted and timely assessments occur, the quicker intervention can begin. A teacher or GP could miss a diagnosis if they are only applying a cursory knowledge.
"Teachers will not be able to recognise or accommodate the child with learning difficulties in class if their knowledge is limited. Similarly GPs will find it difficult to detect and appropriately refer children with learning difficulties


Any note for all this dissabilities are dont be afraid to be different yet every person born different. Just we need to know how to explore our great ability behind our dissability ^_^
a Tom Cruise had Dyslexia, he is a great actor and producer now
Smile,
Fight
and Rise your dream

   Love
~Violet~